Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Hormone Test Results

I am so relieved to have good news regarding my hormones and FSH levels.  From the lab results everything is fine except my thyroid is at 5.23, which I assumed it would be high.  It was initially 5.09 when they tested me at the beginning of our IVF journey.  It's just a big relief and I won't worry each month now.  I'm glad I just did it instead of continuing to wonder.

So the dilemma I'm facing right now is if I want to go on Levothyroxine again to help get my levels in a normal range or not.  Part of me wants to and that would eliminate one box on the "may affect fertility" column.  I might just take it for a few months to a year in a very low dose and see what happens.  If we're meant to have a baby I know it will happen and if it doesn't happen I'm perfectly happy adopting again.  Jones is a blessing and regardless of the fact that someone else carried and birthed him he's my baby boy.

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Teething Stage

We've officially hit the teething stage.  Teeth aren't poking through yet, but he's drooling like crazy.  He's also chewing on his hands and is crankier than usual.

One of my friends gave me an amber teething necklace for a baby shower present.  I put it on the window seal to recharge for a couple hours in the sun (heard that helps) and then put it on.  Don't know if it's a coincidence or if it really works, but he hasn't been as cranky since.  I also researched online and found a few different articles on ointments and teething tablets.  He's not a big chewer on anything but his hands/fingers and my fingers.  He will chomp on my fingers for 15 minutes straight.  We have a Sophie, but he doesn't really seem to like it.  I also tried the freezer teethers, but when I had him try it he looked at me like I was crazy and then made a face like it tasted bad.  A friend suggested Hyland Teething Tablets so those are on the way as well as Gum-omile Oil.  I also noticed today in the grocery store that Orajel has a Naturals option so I bought that.  AND I heard that Pulsatilla helps too.

I'm stockpiling a teething defense!  Feel more prepared now :)

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Sad News about our Birth Mom

Our birth mom moved to New Mexico in February for a job and it seemed to be going well.  But just this week she decided to go to Vegas for a visit.  She lived there for a while and two of her daughters are there.  I was a little concerned since that was where she had been doing drugs before.  Apparently, in less than 24hrs she was doing meth.  Before she had the baby she had been sober for 2 years.  It's just so sad to me.  I was hopeful with her positive experience with the adoption and me checking in on her, that she might really get a fresh start this time.  She had enrolled in school and we paid for so much dental work that she finally had a beautiful smile again.  Now her own mother has blocked her number and blocked her on FB.

Having a close friend that was a meth addict in college really taught me that there is nothing you can do.  The only healthy thing to do with a meth addict is set boundaries and let them know you won't accept what they're doing and to not come around until they're sober.  Once they start using they don't care about anyone or anything, especially themselves.  It's just all about getting high.

I really think that she just has so many old wounds that have never been addressed in therapy and the weight of all of that makes it extremely difficult for her to function.  Life has been very hard for her and she's continuing to try to escape through drugs, but it just makes it 10 times worse in the end.  During the pregnancy and the time in the hospital I got to know her so well and I really do love her.  I wish that our son's story would be that after his adoption his birth mom went to school, got a job and eventually married and had a family.  Unfortunately, I don't think will be how the story goes.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Dr Update

The appointment with the Naturopathic Dr went great.  She is very knowledgeable on thyroid and fertility issues and overall women's health.  My appointment was an hour and 45 minutes and completely due to her asking questions and explaining things.  I felt that she genuinely cared and it was a breath of fresh air after what we've dealt with on all of the IVF doctors.

She's ordering a metabolic panel, FSH, Ferritin, T4, Prolactin, and TSH.  I'll go to the lab on day 3 of my cycle and have all of the tests done.  She can also be our family doctor, which I think will work out great.  Jones hasn't been to the pediatrician since he was two weeks old.  He's had no reason to go and is a healthy 18 lbs and doing great.  He's very alert and is so much more interactive.  I do think he's getting close to teething, lots of hand chewing and drooling going on lately.

We're taking a trip in April to see my father and I'm excited for them to meet each other.  Since my dad moved permanently after my parents divorce I haven't seem him in almost a year.  I'm looking forward to catching up and he's excited to show off his grandson.  I'm buying this little camo onesie since my dad loves to hunt :)

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Off to see the Dr...or naturopath rather

I've been concerned from the beginning about the long term affects of all of the IVF medications on my body.  After all of the treatments my periods have become very short and completely different from what they were before.  A new IVF clinic opened in town and I decided to call them to see if they would do specific testing for me and of course they need to have a new patient consultation with me etc etc  I was having deja vu and just started feeling the icky IVF frustrations all over again.  So I decided against the clinic and looked for a naturopathic Dr that specializes in infertility.  I found one and asked around about her and actually know a couple people that have been to her.  I see her in a couple weeks.  I'm wanting to test my FSH and that tells me how my ovarian reserve is doing.  I would also like my thyroid tested again and a friend suggested prolactin as well.  Her sister was on the high side for thyroid levels and they found out that she had a benign tumor on her pituitary gland.  So my friend is convinced I think I have it and now she is kind of freaking me out :)

Instead of worrying every month each time I have another abnormal period I just want to know what's going on with my body.  I want to know why things have changed and if it's reversible.

The munchkin is doing great and is 16.5 lbs!  He's starting to show interest in my food and I'm just shocked at how much he changes each week.  I'm holding off on solids until he's taking 8 oz and is still hungry or if he starts waking up at night.  We ordered a highchair and I want him to get used to sitting in it while we eat our dinner before he's joining us with solid food.  He's always been on his play mat in another room or on my lap.

This weekend I packed up all of his newborn and 3-6 month clothes (since outgrown them all) into storage bins.  It's crazy to me that he's almost 4 months old.  Each day he's becoming more interactive and smiling and giggling. He's such an overwhelming blessing and I'm grateful for him every single day.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

First Family Trip

Our first family trip went really well.  Jones did great on the plane with the exception of the last 10 minutes of the flight home.  I think the pressure was really hurting his ears and he was taking a bottle, but it wasn't helping.  Once we landed he was smiling at everyone.

Lessons learned:

I could have packed about half of what I brought.
Laundry facilities are a must.
The most helpful thing was a huge changing pad.  We just laid it on a extra bed and that was our changing table.

I got much more comfortable with changing him and feeding him away from the home.  I can't help but feel like people are judging me when I'm giving him a bottle instead of breastfeeding though.  I know probably 90% of the people that walk by aren't, but it's still in the back of my mind.  Even though I was able to get him donor breastmilk it isn't 100% of the time.  There's a little pang of infertile guilt whenever someone asks me if I'm nursing him.

OAHU:  We've been there many times and it's always been a great vacation spot.  I recommend the North Shore for anyone that travels to Oahu.  We went down to Waikiki for our anniversary date and it was so overcrowded.  It's a shame that's what most people experience when they go there.  PLUS the vacation rentals in most cases are less expensive than the hotels down there.  We had a waterfront house and it was less expensive than any of the waterfront hotels.  One of my favorite parts of the trip was laying on the beach in front of the house under a little umbrella, just the 3 of us.

Family vacations are so important to me.  My family took only one the entire time growing up and I hope to do something every year.

Friday, February 21, 2014

Family Trip Pic

I don't post pics often on here because I'm paranoid frankly :)  Plus, I've always tried to keep my blog somewhat anonymous/private.  However, had to share this one :)

Jones's 3 month day and the first time his feet touched the ocean.  Aloha from Oahu!