Day 4 of Lupron

The insanity has begun. I feel like everything is too much to handle right now and every little discussion with Farmie about something remotely stressful seems like a crisis.

I had a meltdown last night because we have to travel over the next few days. Lupron has to be refrigerated. It is so simple logically to figure out a way to bring it with us: a cooler...ice packs. However, emotionally I'm almost distraught with fear that the medication will be affected by temperature changes.

We're going on a two day trip with Farmie's family. His brother and family, sister and her family and his parents. There is a water park that they will be spending a lot of time at. I told Farmie that I wouldn't be joining in. For one...injection sites kind of gross me out and all I have are bikinis. Two: I don't want to be in water where babies in diapers are playing in when I have injection sites (just a little bit of a germ issue). Three: yesterday was my last day of my birth control so I have been and will continue bleeding.

I've told Farmie that I think it's already affecting me hormonally/emotionally. He's trying his best to be delicate with me. He cuddled with me after our argument last night and I rarely need that, but I needed it last night.

No one said this would be easy. I knew that I would most likely be affected this way by Lupron. I just hope that all this time with family in combination with the drugs doesn't create a major meltdown. Fingers crossed...